Still Waiting

Yep. still waiting on the phone call that puts the X in my date book. All this waiting is driving me nuts. I have so much stuff I want to plan out but I can't until I have a surgery date. I really would like to go down home to have a "last meal" party with everyone before I have to start shrinking my liver for surgery(sounds nice huh). Speaking of liver, no more alcohol for quite some time. Cheapest drunk ever. Not saying I drink alot but I have a tendency to make up for dry spells.LOL  I have started to have surgery dreams already. And I have had a couple of skinny dreams too, but I never get to see what I look like. I am really nervous about what I will look like. I don't think I scare small children now with my looks but i hope I actually am pretty( to me). Tired of looking in the mirror and seeing Grimace the Menaces profile. I definately plan to have plastic surgery on certain areas if its needed. I figure if I go through all of this, I don't want to literally carry around the baggage anymore. I'm trying to wrap my head around the one question everyone keeps asking me, "Why gastric bypass?" Maybe I can answer that next time.