It is ONNNNN!!!!!

In 12 days i will be in the operating room undergoing "my rebirth". I am so excited now, the weight wait is almost over.
 I went to my final consultation yesterday and met with my surgeon Dr. Weiss (btw SSOOOOO HOTT). He was very kind and explained everything. I felt such peacefulness and security after working out the details with him. By the way I am not having the bypass after all, I am going with the Gastric Sleeve. It has the same super quick weightloss as the bypass but there are less long term risk factors.

BYPASS	SLEEVE
1st 6 months rapid weight loss and decreased appetite	same
$60 to 90 monthly lifetime for vitamin	still take vitamins but MUCH LESS
Never take aspirin or steroids again	Small ulcer liability
Stomach cannot be examined without surgery	Dissected stomach is removed
Malabsorption for pregnancy	Much less likely
Re routes intestines higher leakage probability	No re routing stomach is a tube shape

I feel GREAT about my choice. The lapband has never been an option, maybe if I was just a little overweight but after the seminar yesterday thats not even realistic for long term success.

So I guess I should tell you about my fantastic Liquid Pre-surgery Diet I have been on and will continue to be on until surgery day and for about a month after. I HATE IT. by the 3rd day I wanted to stab puppies. Everything I dreamed about that night involved me beating someone or something up. I was HANGRY.. yes hangry, hungry + angry!!!

I have been drinking V-8 juice, protein powder drinks and chicken broth. Sounds gourmet, huh. Luckily at the consult yesterday, Dr. Weiss added ONE chicken and veggie meal a day. It was like heaven to my ears. Absolutely NO carbs, which is fine. I'm not really a bread, pasta, and cakes kinda girl anyway. The day before surgery, however, it will be just clear liquids and then after surgery liquids only again. But at least my stomach won't be the size of a 2liter. If you are wondering way the liquid diet, it is to shrink your liver so the surgeon can lift it up to get to the stomach. Apparently the liver can be so soft if its not shrunk the metal instrument that holds it up will cut into the liver easily just from the weight.

I am going to get Jay to take my pre-skinny pics this weekend. HUMILIATING!! but after 14 years, he's seen it all anyway so OH WELL. We were walking around Wal-mart last night and I was checking out the "normal" size clothes. Its still doesn't feel like a real possibility I will fit into those. I have little mini panic attacks thinking about having the surgery and losing absolutely nothing. I know its not possible but everything at this point is surreal.

I don't think any of my family (besides Jay of course) will be able to make it up for my surgery, but I am totally ok with that. I will be out of it anyway and I think I will enjoy the quiet walks by myself. Besides it gives me the opportunity to make a small but grand entrance at Christmas. I hope I lose enough that everyone will notice some progress then. Thanksgiving is out!!! But I'm going to be doing what Thanksgiving is really about this year. GIVING THANKS for this small miracle in my life, no turkey could make that any better!!!! We may still ride up to my aunts so Jay can eat though...lol

Well gonna go for now. Wish me luck that I will not end up on the 11o'clock news because of this diet.